frustrated

irritated, annoyed, sad.
UGH.
Nothing ever works out for me.
This isn’t a pity party for me, like I’m totally okay with it – it’s just more or less an acceptance of what is that seems to be unchangeable.
So i got a newer neon (car- newer in terms of usage same year as other car) and now that makes two. A grey one and my nicer newer one that is black  (and has all the things I’ve always wanted such as sound system, racing peddles and well the  biggest factor is that’s it has a WING) lol for some reason I’ve always wanted a wing, I don’t know maybe it makes me go faster 🙂 clearly a joke. haha

But anywho my other neon was basically done, so i got this one and if anything broke I could essentially take it off the other car. But of course things are never that simple: when I went to get my winter tires put on and my oil change several issues with my new to me car popped up. This was Wednesday.

Previous before that Wednesday I got my sound system in and it lasted 20 minutes before my subs (both brand new) blew. I think what makes me the most mad is that it was just a fucking tease!!!! like seriously! 20 minutes, bitch please. UGH and the guy is being a douche and doesn’t want to exchange them.

And then my bosses dad hit my car this morning (friday)- which it’s not the hit that has me mad/sad it is the fact that I’m so frustrated – nothing ever works out.  Like I wish for once in my life I can have  something of quality  that lasts, and to fix the several problems plus the damages on my front bumper( and I can’t open my passenger door) and additional rust damages (that came with the car when purchased it) it just comes out to this ridiculous price that I seriously don’t even want to think about. Work wise 1k and body wise another 1k or more.

It’s like I keep getting cars and shit just keeps happening to them and the last two “problems” aren’t even my fault yet it still makes me look bad.

I have 3 solutions (none of which I am considering at the moment  because I have gone into this over whelming ignoring my problems and dealing with other life problems first set of mind and thus being school and work and fitness and bills.) ANYWAYS back to solutions.

#1) which is actually three options within this solution that I will have to choose from if I choose solution #1 and those being buying a new car. Within this solution I can choose to buy a cheaper second-hand new car around 10k, or go for my dream car at 23k (couple km’s on it, 2012/2013 model) or just go all out and buy a kia soul ev (electric so no gas, and I get a wack load of money back from the government 8k up to 10k if I make a charging station at my house). So yea this isn’t even a simple choice on its own it would involve thinking, budgeting, test drives, multiple car choices, I mean a car for 10K there’s so many too choose from. Then IF I were to choose from the two new ones I have to choose between what I REALLLLLLLLY WANNNNT verse What I kinda want to represent/ be a good person but still like it, it’s just there’s no good sound system or turbo 😦

#2) Get another beater( most likely another neon yet this one will have body work and a reconstructed engine) But I’m really meh about this because this person could have sold me this exact car months ago which would have helped me / saved me so much money and it is presumably money that I can use for a down payment on a new car.

#3) Take the time and take parts from my grey neon and put them on my black neon, then get the frame rebuilt then get complete body work done and a paint job done. This also in theory would be a couple thousand dollars that I could use for a down payment on a newer car. And also there’s no guarantee of what I take of the grey car will be in good shape and be able to go on the black car.

additional option of which I’m using right now, drive it until it really breaks down then drive the grey one until that breaks and then use all my saved money and buy a new car in a year or however long the two neons last in combined time. Because they both still drive and work for the most part. the things wrong with the black neon aren’t deadly (except the frame will be a problem after some winter time) and the grey neon is just slowly dying a horrible presetone leaking into the engine and alternator going kinda death.

 

I’m just so sad/mad/annoyed/irritated/unmotivated/unsure/angry/disappointed that this is what it is and I can’t make my mind up.

*face/palm*

peace.

 

 

Vegan baby problems

This is just my short opinions, seeing as this would upset some on facebook I’ve decided to post it here on my personal blog and link you guys up to the informative article. I do not have a baby, I am not a vegan, I am not obese. I am not a professional on any of the above either- simply it concerns my research project in ISSS class in college and I’m pro-vegan. 

Really, aren’t there bigger issues in the world? A mom chooses to feed her baby soy formula instead of “typical formula” and shes considered neglecting her baby. Bitch please. How about people who let their kids get obese or over weight (which increase their chances of getting chronic diseases and lowers their life expectancy) as a child that’s not an issue ? that’s not neglect ? I feel like people have nothing better to do with their time and waste it harassing others.

http://www.cdc.gov/healthyyouth/obesity/facts.htm (information on childhood obesity)

http://www.takepart.com/article/2014/11/12/vegan-mom-threat-baby?cmpid=foodinc-fb (article referred to above )

7k and counting!

I finally got my braces off and so far the work I’ve paid for and have put into my teeth total for about 7k, But friends it just doesn’t stop there.

Sadly, it doesn’t. 😦

I still have to fork out 9k this coming year, for a bone transplant surgery, then an implant surgery and finally the crowns to atop those implants. (along regular cleanings and possibly getting my teeth whitened).

I have planned to get 2 dental implants now – with the possibility of getting 4 additional ones in the future. I’m missing my canine, and my lateral incisor which is what I’m fixing this year. presently it is built into my retainer so no one can tell. and as for the 4 other implants im considering getting one day- those are Bottom jaw: both sides ” first molar” and right side ” second molar” and for my Top Jaw: I need on my right side my “first molar” replaced its presently there but is in bad bad shape. Of course these 4 other implants are not necessary – I’ve been doing fine since grade 7 not having them haha. but it’s a preference of mine to have maybe. And the two that I’m getting now are a priority.

But so far my smile looks good. And some of you might think it is insane that I would pay so much for all this but for me it’s confidence, and better hygiene (in regards to eating). I remember in grade 3 when my “big teeth” came down and I knew it was in the wrong spot that I wanted braces right away but my parents could never afford to get me them or let alone a cleaning or even a cavity filling (that’s why I’m missing so many molars on my bottom jaw they rotted to the point I had to pull them out when I got my first job and some money. I’m talking pain– for years, all my high school years I would be in pain day in and day out)

Here is some proof of my new smile 🙂 (Yes this is from SnapChat)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Peace 🙂

#LongHairDontCare

Ah, this.

If y’all follow me on instagram you know that almost every picture I have of myself on there has this hashtag.

Bien, Long hair don’t care- see the thing is I do care: about my long hair that is.

I have stopped dying my hair and am taking extra steps for it to grow long and healthy. Those being various “natural” shampoos and conditioners.

But with long hair there are problems.

These being :

You get plenty of knots.

Brushing those knots out hurt.

Whenever I take off my seat belt my hair ALWAYS get’s stuck in it. And then the painful process of pulling your hair out.

Breakage.

STATIC, holy fuck. My biggest pet peeve, like no matter what I do I have static and I’m not about to use hair spray I rather not get cancer thank you very much.

Cows, haha kay so I work on a farm milking cows so therefore I’m around them all the time and get pretty close to them – and whats more appetizing to a cow than nice long hair in a ponytail or a bun. Good thing is me and the cows have a good understanding of each other- don’t touch my hair :p (aka I’m more cautious as to how close my hair get’s to their faces )

Laying down – on my hair.

My boyfriend having his oh so romantic hand behind my shoulders while watching TV and moves his arm during which he pulls my hair.

Getting dress I always have to do awkward movements to ensure my hair doesn’t get tangled or stuck under my clothes. The worst though is it getting tangled in my bra clip. Lordy jesus does that grind my gears.

Styling – curls? Naw my hair’s to long for that because it take an hour to do them only for about 15 minutes of nice hair and then it’s flat again. And as I said above I don’t use hair spray.

Any other nice hair styles / do’s are just massive do not’s at the moment.

I can never get my hair to part right.

When I jog it’s so annoying -_-

It doesn’t grow fast enough.

Again, static.

So there you have it.

What are your hair problems ?

Peace

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang.

(We love you, Favorite childhood movie.)

So as you guys might or might not know, my car (le neon) died in August 2012(As my parents would say “The shitbox died) and I bought an Elantra in September (The other car that is possibly better than my car but I keep denying it because Le neon will always be my first car when in reality it is my third.) (I have a bad car history, I won’t elaborate on this). We couldn’t figure out what was wrong with my car, etc, etc, etc.  So I had bought my New to me but very old to the world winter beater to obviously get me through winter. And it has done that and has only had issues once and that being a battery problem. How Ironic (See below.)

Well Guess what ?!? My Neon starts. *Pulls out hair.* All it need was a frigin boost (and a New battery).

Now I’m stuck. The current car I have is *Cough* automatic *ew* and I hate automatics I love my stick shifts. So what do I do; sell my neon now that it works?! sell the Elantra. Keep both? Go in the Derby? With which one?

*cries in confusion* You can tell I’m such a women eh ? I can never decide on what the hell I want to do.  NEVERRRR.  I seriously feel bad for the male race for the fact that they have to deal with us women never being 100% sure of what they want.

Oh and lastly I spent 500$ on my “new to me but old to the world car” when in reality I could have had my boyfriend boost it and get a 40$ second hand battery form the scrap year.

Fantastic. Vehicles. Modes of transportation. Gas guzzlers.