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frustrated

irritated, annoyed, sad.
UGH.
Nothing ever works out for me.
This isn’t a pity party for me, like I’m totally okay with it – it’s just more or less an acceptance of what is that seems to be unchangeable.
So i got a newer neon (car- newer in terms of usage same year as other car) and now that makes two. A grey one and my nicer newer one that is black  (and has all the things I’ve always wanted such as sound system, racing peddles and well the  biggest factor is that’s it has a WING) lol for some reason I’ve always wanted a wing, I don’t know maybe it makes me go faster 🙂 clearly a joke. haha

But anywho my other neon was basically done, so i got this one and if anything broke I could essentially take it off the other car. But of course things are never that simple: when I went to get my winter tires put on and my oil change several issues with my new to me car popped up. This was Wednesday.

Previous before that Wednesday I got my sound system in and it lasted 20 minutes before my subs (both brand new) blew. I think what makes me the most mad is that it was just a fucking tease!!!! like seriously! 20 minutes, bitch please. UGH and the guy is being a douche and doesn’t want to exchange them.

And then my bosses dad hit my car this morning (friday)- which it’s not the hit that has me mad/sad it is the fact that I’m so frustrated – nothing ever works out.  Like I wish for once in my life I can have  something of quality  that lasts, and to fix the several problems plus the damages on my front bumper( and I can’t open my passenger door) and additional rust damages (that came with the car when purchased it) it just comes out to this ridiculous price that I seriously don’t even want to think about. Work wise 1k and body wise another 1k or more.

It’s like I keep getting cars and shit just keeps happening to them and the last two “problems” aren’t even my fault yet it still makes me look bad.

I have 3 solutions (none of which I am considering at the moment  because I have gone into this over whelming ignoring my problems and dealing with other life problems first set of mind and thus being school and work and fitness and bills.) ANYWAYS back to solutions.

#1) which is actually three options within this solution that I will have to choose from if I choose solution #1 and those being buying a new car. Within this solution I can choose to buy a cheaper second-hand new car around 10k, or go for my dream car at 23k (couple km’s on it, 2012/2013 model) or just go all out and buy a kia soul ev (electric so no gas, and I get a wack load of money back from the government 8k up to 10k if I make a charging station at my house). So yea this isn’t even a simple choice on its own it would involve thinking, budgeting, test drives, multiple car choices, I mean a car for 10K there’s so many too choose from. Then IF I were to choose from the two new ones I have to choose between what I REALLLLLLLLY WANNNNT verse What I kinda want to represent/ be a good person but still like it, it’s just there’s no good sound system or turbo 😦

#2) Get another beater( most likely another neon yet this one will have body work and a reconstructed engine) But I’m really meh about this because this person could have sold me this exact car months ago which would have helped me / saved me so much money and it is presumably money that I can use for a down payment on a new car.

#3) Take the time and take parts from my grey neon and put them on my black neon, then get the frame rebuilt then get complete body work done and a paint job done. This also in theory would be a couple thousand dollars that I could use for a down payment on a newer car. And also there’s no guarantee of what I take of the grey car will be in good shape and be able to go on the black car.

additional option of which I’m using right now, drive it until it really breaks down then drive the grey one until that breaks and then use all my saved money and buy a new car in a year or however long the two neons last in combined time. Because they both still drive and work for the most part. the things wrong with the black neon aren’t deadly (except the frame will be a problem after some winter time) and the grey neon is just slowly dying a horrible presetone leaking into the engine and alternator going kinda death.

 

I’m just so sad/mad/annoyed/irritated/unmotivated/unsure/angry/disappointed that this is what it is and I can’t make my mind up.

*face/palm*

peace.

 

 

Things to do..

I have so many things I want to do, and this cold/sore throat/ is really holding my back and sucking all my energy away.

I’ve been wanting to do so much but all I do is sleep.

So today I said I have to do some of my things then once I’m done them I can take a nap.

So Today, I help edit my Bf’s Resume, Showered, and am now blogging (also worked am milking)

I still have a few other things I’d like to do before I lay down (if I even do)

I want to workout more!!!

I keep on jumping in between 3 lbs, and I can run 5km in 36 minutes (terrible I know eh) And I want to improve this time by % minutes before the months over! (But I’m bloody sick -_-)

I also should go see my aunt sometime, my dad and brother need a visit too.

Also Trying to keep RT4, OR HCLFRV as a lifestyle but it is hard.

But one thing I can say is that i’m still vegetarian and I love it 🙂

I wish saying no was so much more easier. I wish I could just walk a way, but I always give in. Especially to the bad things like chocolate and cupcakes and pizza. NOM.

Do you have any tricks or tips to make saying no easier?

Is being this sleepy normal ?

I need fitness/ health motivation! ?

Peace.

 

 

Job search why you so hard.

Hey peoples,

So  a lot has happened lately;

  • I dropped out of school to work
  • Have a job milking cows (which I still hold to this very moment)
  • found a second job
  • wasn’t successful in the telemarketing category
  •  lost the second job

And now I’m back to the job search, I’ve applied to every notice on Kijiji. I have started out searching in places like Montreal (1 hr away) and Cornwall (also 1 hr away).

Results ? Nothing. NOTHING. *Head desk*

You know I would be okay with the nothing answer if I was not trying, but here is the thing I’m applying to places everyday no matter what in person, by email or phone.

I am a little discouraged but I’m not going to let it affect my outlook or give up. I’m just going to as Dory would say “Just keep swimming” or in this case Just keep applying.

Update on Taxes

So I got my lovely deposit and I’m scarred to use it.
SCARED.
It’s weird.
I want to pay some of my debt, but like  it’s quite a bit of money, should I even touch it ?
Well so far, I have done/ paid:
Paid 260$ for car insurance
and presently have 240 in my wallet. (Might put 150 on credit card for my 5k races and a concert I want to go to, but I don’t know)
I’m trying to figure out how much to pay my credit cards (2000) / braces (1125) /  car insurance (280) / LIFE (Priceless apparently)
I’d like to save at least 500$
Once again any suggestions ?
Should I divide it up all fancy so it benefits everything ?
I have no idea. *sigh*
Peace

Monday Madness

On a serious note this blog is going to be a series of questions. Feel free to answer them if you feel like you can. I would add textual back ground to this post but honestly I don’t feel like it.
When do you give up trying to help someone?
Do you keep trying?
Does it make a difference if they are close to your heart?
What can you do when all do is try and they refuse to accept your assistance.
Would you walk away?
Do you go back and try again?
I dunno the purpose of this post but from what you probably have grasp is that this post is about someone important to me and they absolutely refuse help but always ask for it. From my knowledge they are in denial and refuse to neither help themselves nor accept help. It’s pretty tragic, but I guess that’s life.
I guess I’ll keep trying, tis all you can do.
Now I’ll resume some black ops.