Mkay I may have over reacted, just maybe.

So Wednesday / Thursday-ish (the line is slightly blurry) I was basically in the mode of “fuck my life” and I had wrote a blog on EVERYTHING that was going wrong but then when  I hit posted my computer went craycray and essentially lost the whole blog (not even a  draft was saved) and being all frustrated and stuff I just said fuck it there’s better things to do then rewrite it (like nothingness).  But since I had written that other post I’ve had the best of luck, or just a multitude of good/great things happen to me.

And today here’s the list of awesomeness:

Ugh, I got a free riding lesson, a pair of boots and gloves for winter.

I got a HUGE mirror and plywood to finish my repairs in my porch and supper from my aunt.

I made 40$ selling an old phone that I was keeping around until I could sell.

I got a weekend full of work which means more cash.

I got to go to an awesome concert (Brad paisley) and meet a new dude – was supper fun !

My porch is fully fixed and well done.

I’m sure there were more things  but I can’t think of them but these were the best I could think of 🙂 But it’s weird how everything can be the worst and then it can be the best.

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. 😉

Peace

#winning

Working on Homeostasis.

Aka,

The balance within that’s going to be affecting the outside too.

So this new year I have been restoring balance on the outside of my life- debt repayment, saving, getting more work, working out everyday, doing more things I like, Getting plenty of sleep. But some of these “outside things”  affect my inner body – like being healthy, eating healthy, sleeping 8 hours a day, working out, skating.

I can’t say “I’m healthy” I mean some of you will argue with me, for the most part I am improving my heath (but I just ate a bowl of fro-yo sooo I can’t say just yet that I am healthy) Though I have been daily incorporating healthy juices into my diet – in my opinionmy efforts are  still minimal. I know that If I wanted too I could be eating healthy a good 90% of the time. But …

One thing I keep saying is a priority of mine is to be healthier – I mean though this is a lifestyle I already have; I am influenced by those around me – friends and my boyfriend especially. And I lack self-control. I JUST CANNOT NOT EAT CHOCOLATE IF IT IS OFFERED TO ME. And sadly I won’t say no. But see if that was just the case – it alongside others foods offered to me once in a blue moon I’d be all good. It’d be once in a while and controlled. But I live with my Boyfriend – and even though his parents don’t buy all of our food and I’d say 1/4th is healthy  (we buy our fruits and veggies for juicing) I just can’t say no to that fro-yo or that over processed bread or pasta or nuts. I mean I walk into the kitchen often – It’s where the exit of the house is.  And it is so easy just to grab and go.

Sure your thinking “portion control” nope I lack that too.

And I guess this post is about the struggle – maybe I’m weak, or discipline less. I just don’t know how.

Alongside this my boyfriend works at a resto so it is so easy to ask him to order something for me – and the second I ask I regret it, but then it is too late I can’t just waste the food. So I eat it.

I’m not blaming them- I’m completely blaming myself, I just wish there was a way to not want it. To look at it and go ‘meh’.

Does anyone have any ideas and such ?

Methods ?

Are you like this too ?

Peace, stay healthy.

 

 

The Verdict

So finally, I had my doctor’s appointment today and got some good news. I had my cast taken off as well but now I have to tap my ring finger and my middle finger. You alll know what this means, I won’t be able to fully express my road rage.  aha, that’s a joke, I don’t have road rage, nor a speeding problem 😉

Even though I’m not wearing my cast anymore I can’t say that I can go write a term paper and start using the elliptical. Definitely, not.  I can’t open a door, I can’t turn a car key, I can’t hold a cup of coffee but besides this there is a noticeable improvement.

Besides the fact that my hands the color of the Grinch(how the Grinch stole Christmas) and Big bird(from sesame street) It is a lot less swollen, though it is still quite swollen around my knuckles and my fractured finger.

I got to see my fracture and it turns out I have a medium fracture not a hair line and a chunk of my knuckle had broken. To be SPECIFIC it’s my 4th middle phalange on the inner right top where it connects to the proximal phalanges.  Yea, no big deal or anything. It’ll take 6-8 weeks to heal.

In the mean while there are  few things I can do, type with my thumb and index finger from my right hand and of course every finger on my left hand.  Go jogging, worked out today [: super motivated to, it was over a week since I last had. Play with my fur baby. Change my clothes though my bra proved to be a pain in the butt. But overall I avoid using my right hand unless it’s very light work like tapping a key board.

So I’ll keep you updated shortly. The picture below is NOT MY HAND. But a Google picture with names of the parts of the finger so you guys can get a better understanding.

The pink is to give you guys a rugh idea where it would be.. This is NOT my hand once again. Though having apink fracture would be cool.

 

peace, xo