That thing we call the holidays.

How were your holidays ?

Mine were good except I’m not a very holiday-y person, I like to spend time with people and stuff my face but when it comes it gift giving or receiving I rather just not take part in it. I feel like that is all Christmas is about.

Maybe it is because I’m rebellious, maybe it is because of something else.

Growing up I would remember my parents getting gifts for me and my brother and leaving bills unpaid until they had more money. This probably has to do with my sour image of Christmas, I mean why must we spend tones of money to make kids happy or our friends and family feel loved by us ? I feel like children grow up with more expectations and a massive materialistic ideologies. It’s disgusting, some kids are a third my age and have phones and new high tech gadgets and probably don’t even know what monopoly or play-dough is !

Now on a more personal level, I really just don’t want to get 30 different people gifts, honestly “ain’t nobody got time for that” and I ain’t got the money for that either. But I do like the idea of pulling a name out of a hat and buying that one person a gift, it’s more “user friendly” in my opinion. I’m not selfish, I’m not greedy, I don’t only want gifts, I couldn’t be bothered if no one even gave me anything as long as I got to eat some turkey 🙂 But I know just saying all of this I’ll probably be regarded as a scrooge or something like so.

And our children (I do not have any), the younger generations they  are just so goddamn materialistic. For example my own younger brother the first thing I heard out of his mouth when I seen him over the holiday was “What did you get me ?!??!?!?!?!?” My reaction was disgust and then to slap him upside the head, of course I didn’t do that but still. Is this really what it is about? Seeing each other and having a big dinner talking about the ol’ times  to me is better than the contrary.

What are your opinions of the holidays ?

What did you get if you get anything?

How do you gift give, pull a name out of a hat or give something to everyone ?

Peace, xo.

Can December get any worse

 

Before you all think I’m being melodramatic like I usually am I’m not. I am seriously discouraged about everything.

The start of the month resulted in my dog eating a 250$ mouth appliance/ retainer thing.

Then following that was the crushing of my hand and the  breaking of my ring finger, did I mention this is my first broken bone and the hand I use to write with? But since then it is relatively healed though I tend to try to over use it which results in me hurting it again.

Then I found out the only time I had an opportunity to work was Christmas vacation and  my company is closed so I have no pay for 2 weeks.

I’m very poor.

I haven’t worked-out much due to the fact that something just keeps happening and this is frustrating because Christmas is coming and I don’t want to gain weight.

 Now I have a cold that had me in my bed all weekend and it’s getting worst. I can’t talk and my throat hurts and is swollen so much and coughing is a nightmare. I have missed so much school this semester and now I’m missing more. I have a final in Geography tomorrow which I am having such a hard time to study for because I can’t breathe nor concentrate on maps and stuff. I hate school. I hate Geography. I hate being sick. I hate the possibility of doing bad on a test too .I have so many assignments to do too as well and I don’t want to let any one down or fail, so I feel uber pressured to do good.  Which isn’t something I normally worry about because I always do good. 

I feel like Christmas is going to be the ‘cheery-on-top’ of everything this year / month/ time period because I can’t afford to buy gifts.  My plan was going to be baking and making gifts but honestly who wants a gift from someone who possibly has strep throat? I know for sure not me. (Regarding more the baked goods)

I remember growing up and thinking I don’t want to be one of those people who hates Christmas and now I see myself being so annoyed with everything that this might happen. Not because of the Christmas aspect just because this has been the worst month ever and it would take a miracle to bring my spirits up and actually be happy in time.

I just want the New year to come with better things in store.