Seriously doe

Merry Christmas everyone,

So I just got done work and am relaxing, and thinking and so forth.

Christmas is how you make it really, if you think it’ll suck it will if you think it will be great it will be. And then there are people like me aha that are stuck in the middle, I think Christmas is great (besides the materialism aspect tho) I love the idea of seeing all your friends and family and just spending time together.

Now what I don’t like, really and its unchangeable is the fact that my mom is no longer here – over the last year I have taken this and used as a drive for my ambition – in a positive way. Being me I always try to be positive, and I achieved many goals over 2014.

But I really just was not feeling the whole Christmas spirit – until a rather small gesture kinda made my wholeee day :3 So this pretty-fucking-amazing-asfuck-guy gave me a call (well 3 calls actually); like I said rather small gesture but Jesus did it make my day. I was on time (kinda) for work and I had a perma-smile on my face. Like seriously guys you have no clue how amazing it was just to talk on the phone with someone whom you can’t see on Christmas that you care about.

Which brings me to the semi conclusion of this blog, small gestures guys- you don’t need to spend every last fuckin penny you have on someone to show them you care. All it took for me is a call and I’m on like cloud 9. Not to get corny or anything it’s the small things that count :3

Have a merry Christmas and remember that it’s not about what you get, it’s about what you do for others and what you give that matters the most, alongside the small things in life ; appreciate the people around you cherish every moment because one day they won’t be there. Also the small things ❤

Peace.

Is love blind ?

So on fb someone (mino) posted a photo of a pair of old no good boots that she was going to get rid of and I went forth and commented on there and another friend/cousin of hers commented (jed) and then we went forth with disputing on love. Not negatively but jokingly about love and blindness and so forth and I came out with this: 

“No but to be in love with some one or something you have to have an attraction to them and that attraction then turns into persuasion / relationship/ buying the shoes/ car /horse/ or anything it is- first an attraction a “hey look at that/those/her/him” and then from there on out it turns into love. I cant be in love with “blank” if I’m not attracted to “blank”. something draws me to it and that draw is attraction and that can even be applied to “mind sets – or how people think” like i can be attracted to a person not based on looks but based on their thinking process or views on the world or how they treat others. but the key line here is attractions draws which turns into something more.. thus being that love is not blind because you were first drawn to it/thing/item/him/her/ what him her thinks or does or says: so therefore what lead you to love was not the blindness but an clear view of something that triggered attraction in your brain/mind which open the doors to love.”

What do ya’ll think ? I’ve done plenty research on these topics because I want / had wanted to be a relationship psychologist and the biggest aspect in a relationship is love but anyways the prime idea here is that no love is not blind because you were drawn to the thing or person that you are in love with first. you were drawn through a primary sensory: seeing, hearing, tasting, touching ( I may have missed one ..) before it could lead to something else. (i.e. love)

Must say friends I’m pretty proud of myself for being this come-backy. usually I would have been like “no not true” but I actually used some knowledge.

Meet Duke

As you may have read in a previous post I have a new puppy named Duke, he’s a Sibarian Husky.

Heres a picture for added cuteness 🙂

He is seriously the love of my life, who needs a man ? Get a dog 🙂

Maybe these are signs of forever alone ? haha jokes. But seriously with a puppy it’s like your free time is consumed with joy, happiness, playfulness, excitement, all those positive emotions that we need to and should surround ourselves with. Remember people the most important thing in life is to be happy, and that’s through doing what you love and positive happy thoughts. 🙂 and for me that’s a cute  puppy and blogging and driving and riding and jogging and … you get my point 😉

GMV: Friends

Ah, I’m still vegetarian and vegan at least 3 days of the week, it’s hard being around 100% meat eaters or exception-ists (as in people who mainly eat vegetarian but still consume meet once in a while, gravy, seafood, eggs)

But what is hard is that most of the people whom surround me are not vegan or vegetarians and i simply have accepted that, which ive noticed online people on vegan sites hate for example other vegans whom are different (i.e. high fat, low fat, 80/10/10, raw, raw till 4, frutarians) But personally i just don’t hate people (rather dislike two people of which i don’t even talk to) so below i came up with a list of people or things that surround me that aren’t vegan and that i have accepted this, and my ultimate goal is to find friendships that are vegan or vegetarian.

What I have accepted:

-My friends eat meat (except for 1, she eats a hot dog once a year though haha Kim 🙂 but is vegetarian)

-My boyfriend eats meat

-People I live with eat meat

-Coworkers eat meat

-No restaurants surve vegan meals in Huntingdon

What I can change:

– Find friends who are vegan and vegetarian and accept them into my circle of happiness

– only hopefully influence my boyfriend- can’t change him though. It is tough being two different people, living two different lifestyles and sharing an intimate relationship. my boyfriend has practically been the same guy for the last 4 years and me myself I’ve changed or reinvented myself at least 4 times in the last 4 years.

-Move into my own vegan home, where no harm is done to any animal

-Start out sourcing for far vegan restaurants in Montreal or just never eat out and save $$$$

and as for my coworkers (excluding k.) that really is not an issue it was just a point as to whom surrounds me that is not similar in lifestyles to me. I was simply just listing people, thus being i mean no offence to anyone whom eats meat i listed yous for example purposes.

Also a few other plans for when i have my own home. veggies and fruits EVERYWHERERERERERERESSSSSSSS 🙂

organic and eco-friendliness

positivity and happiness

fitness and yoga.

all in all better things for me, my soul, the environment, and for anyone around me. ( what do i mean for anyone around me ? you know when you walk down the street and the guy in front of you is smoking and you get a big lung full of his nasty second hand smoke ? well no one around me will suffer from my second hand smoke or chemicals or litter(because i don’t smoke and don’t litter and avoid using chemicals that are toxic) – i do pollute because i fart and drive a car haha- but most of the things i do and plan on doing will better earth in some way or form.

what have you done today to  better yourself or planet earth ?

do you think eating meat is killing ?

What do you agree or disagree with ?

lastly, have any advice fellow vegans/vegetarians ?

 

 

 

Horse back riding.

I’ve started something new this week.

I’ve always loved horses – in grade school I would always write about horses and unicorns. My room was decorated with horse items. I loved all of it. I remember once mom helped me write a book- I was in grade 4 I think and it was about horse, how I wanted one, one I had met at a farm we went too, and a few other nonsense childish things.  I still have it today 🙂

So besides riding ponys, I had no real horse experience. Until this past week I started riding Blossom. Shes about 24, super sweet- though a tad out of shape haha, can’t get much of a trot out of her yet.

Blossom

I’ve ridden her 3 times this week – my ass is so sore. But I’ve been pretty happy this week. Since mom passed I’ve been “mulling” through the weeks slightly aimlessly, sure I had goals and things to do but I really had nothing there to put a good long-lasting smile on my face. But let me tell you, riding  this old mere sure does just that- I have a HUGE kiddish smile on my face. I just love it. I feel so stress less and as if I have no problems, even though physically I’m sore.

I just love it.

And ever so gratefully, my BEST friend got me two riding lessons which I plan on taking very soon. And my Boyfriend got my an additional two riding lessons 😀 EEK, this just really, all of this puts me in such a good mood.

So grateful.

Peace.

 

School and such.

Hey people,

Sorry I’ve been of the net lately with school, new job, and a new boyfriend.

But basically my life has been like: school , work, workout, boyfriend, and repeat.

I like for the most part all of my classes so far, except microeconomics. it just makes me wanna *head desk* all of the time. I don’t understand anything – though maybe if I wasn’t writing a blog right now and was listening to the teacher I would find it easier.

I need to get more workouts in, I’ve lost 15 lbs I need to lose more, and jeeze my arms are terrible. period.

But yea, I’m kind of happy.  Well kind of; I mean I am actually really happy.

Peace 😉

Sunday Night Chit Chat

My favorite photo is of my Majestic puppy enjoying the snow. It was taken a few weeks ago but is timeless and I’m just in love with it. She’s looks at home in the snow. 

My favorite quote was from an Artist named Lights “When I accomplish something I’m proud of, that’s when I look in the mirror and feel pretty. Do your thing, your beauty grows into you.”

What are you…

• Reading: Just got done 50 Shades of Grey (Yesterday) and will be posting a blog about my review next week of the trilogy. I will be starting Lauren Conrads book L.A. Candy promptly. 

• Watching: I actually don’t have cable nor satalite. So I’m changing this to ‘gaming’. This would be Black ops. I’m waiting for The Walking Dead to come back on air then I’ll be glued to my Boyfriends T.V. Every Sunday. 

• Listening to: Gun shots, my boyfriend is playing black ops 2 – But am craving Dubstep.  

• Baking/Cooking: Garlic Bread for a girlie get together with a group of school friends tomorrow.

• Happy you accomplished this week: Haven’t spent a penny in my no/low spend challenge. And all of the blogging I have been doing lately. 

• Looking forward to next week: Tones of work hours and getting my hair done and my friend Jessie’s dinner. Can not wait much longer !

• What is the minimum # you feel comfortable with sitting in your bank account/piggy bank? 500$ would be nice because I would stress less about payments and starting a new school term though I am far from that. But I am planning on working tones of hours this week in order to meet my ‘before school’ goal. 

A New Tradition.

So Me and my boyfriend have been doing things that allow us to get more than one thing done at a time. So Now it seems as though once a month we go see 2 or 3 movies at the same time. (The worst thing about thi is that you can’t feel your bum.) But usually we go on a day like Cheap Tuesday  and see at least 2 movies and save … a lot.

Where we are saving:

• Free Refils.

• Cheap Tuesday gives you movies for I do beleive so 30% off or 40% (I’m not sure exactly but it does make a difference.

• Commuting, we go to the Colisee Kirkland which is an hour away, so we only have to drive to the city once a month twice at most.

Basically we get everything done in one  day and it makes for a great date night 🙂

 I’m really loving this trend that we have going on, since we are both in college and work on our free time off we don’t get to go on lavish dates to Baton Rouge anymore. (Yes this makes me sad we used to go all the time.) But sadly things change we’re both college students and you know all that fun stuff. The only down fall to this is pre planning and sore buts. HaHa.

This is the end

This is what I posted on my tumblr the night of my work accident. My tumblr blog is

www.amberbubblybabe.tumblr.com

*******

I feel like my life is ruined. I’m in so much pain. fractured my ring finger and the rest of my hand was severely crushed… I can’t do anything alone. the DR. didn’t perscribe pain killers. I just want to sit in a ball crying, hey wait … that’s what I have been doing … how am I supposed to do homework? put on make up? get dressed? drive my car? and work? I’m so poor I  can barely afford food and now this? I’m having a serious panic attack. I know it could have been worse, I could have lost my fingers. But this alone is enough to discourage anyone.

and I just want to bawl…

mind my spelling mistakes #NotALefty

(end)

*******

Essentially my glove got caught and pulled my hand in which then got crushed by sprocket

Definition of sprocket:

1. Each of several projections on the rim of a wheel that engage with the links of a chain or with holes in film, tape, or paper.

2. A wheel with teeth.

Then the chain continued to well crush my hand. my first reaction was to pull my hand but I couldn’t and after about 10 second (the longest most painful seconds of my life) I remembered the emergency stop button. I got my hand out which at this time was completely numb out and the supervisor sat me down in the office. Then called the ambulance (company rules.) I was fiercely shaking and kind of hysterical, couldn’t feel anything and was bleeding everywheres – kinda had the  right to freak out. The doctor at first said your hand just suffered trauma and I was like “Bitch no, there’s something wrong with my ring finger, all I feel is a fucking grinding ass pain, there is somethings wrong.” (said in a more polite tone of course 🙂 ) and then it turns out it was fractured in the knuckle area, however that works out… Overall the most painfullest experience of my life. My two car accidents put together wasn’t even this bad and I had whip-lash with deep cuts.

I after a day, I have figured out that I can in fact wash my own hair (in a bath tub). Play monopoly very good in fact. And need at least 4 pain killers every 4-6 hours.  I can type very slowly with my left hand. I can close a car door. I can eat certain things like crackers. but something like apple sauce or cereal is very hard to do, I can’t hold the bowl in one place and have a hard time controlling my left hand while directing the spoon. According to my boyfriend this is hilarious.

I can’t do a lot of things that really frustrate me and from there just make me sad or mad or both and then usually cry in defeat. but I’ve gotten over this pretty much. I just avoid things that I know I can’t do. But its all very very discouraging. So my strategy is to avoid such things because I know they’ll just make everything so much more worst.

My boyfriend has been the best, he is super helpfull and deals with all of my bitching, complaining, anger issues and sadnesss and for the most part is still incouraging and helpfull 🙂 going to get all mouchy here but I ❤ him :]

I’ll update my blog as much as possible but I have no idea when, with 12 days of school left, this hand and frequent panic attacks I can’t for sure tell you how many blogs I will write. 

Peaceee

Factory girl.

So I work in a factory part-time while doing my college studies. And I know when women first started in the work force that’s what they were doing, factory work. But as a 20-year-old during college I expect more, I expect to be working a less crappy job; sure it pays more than minimum wage but honestly, It SUCKS.

I would rather work with the public or a more girly job, that I have to put efforts into looking good and being pretty. When working in a factory it is discouraging, no windows, sexist co-workers, favoritism, and just plainly it sucks. You often get sore from long hours, 12 to be exact. It is so long and painful and depressing. Good thing is that was Saturday and Sunday, and now we are Tuesday. Lovely that means there are three days left to enjoy the light, my boyfriend, my puppy and family. Then I go back.

So I have 5 current obsessions, 2 being girly, 2 being … guy-ish? And 1 being random!

1) Maybelline, New York – BABY LIPS lip gloss with color tint in pink punch. It screams cuteeee 🙂 That is why I specifically bought it, give it a try!

2) Maybelline, New York Master Precise, by eye studio in black. If you have seen any pictures of Lauren Conrad she has that classic black liquid eye liner that roles of her lids and into a point. I can master this with this amazing liquid eye liner.  Perfect for anyone who wants their eyes to pop!

3) Resident Evil 5, yes I know! It isn’t even out yet; I’m going crazy I can’t wait!

4) The Walking Dead series, that plays on AMC. As you have probably notice I’m having my yearly zombie obsession. I know I’m out of que with the rest of the world because they celebrate this or are obsessed with this during Halloween, but I’m a wee bit different. Yep best series ever and I’ll like to thank Netflix for this obsession.

5) Twitter, I know who isn’t right? But it is like checking my make up everyday. I have to check it and then tweet. It is to the point my Boyfriend wants to block it, but then the results of that action will lead to a very unhappy life… So he is being smart about it and not saying a thing. Remember everyone happy wife happy life 🙂 Not that I’m married, But we have been together for almost 1 year and 10 months. ❤