Bruh

I’mma care for you, you, you. You make it look like it’s Magic. 🙂

Ten points for whoever gets what this this about ^

Haha, I just got done a 70 min jog, and have work in like T-minus 15 min.

So just figured I’d throw in a quick ” I’m alive no worries” kinda post.

FINALLY, have savings again.. And on ma feet (insert bitch emoji)

Now I’ve just gotta save like a milla dolla and then we good for this summer 🙂

But serious, I may be panning a little too much but I’ve always liked a challenge. Just gotta work hard if I wanna play hard. (And stop buying Timmies and going to cunninghams)

Anyways I’m out.

Stay Beautiful and Positive loves.

Peace.

Mkay I may have over reacted, just maybe.

So Wednesday / Thursday-ish (the line is slightly blurry) I was basically in the mode of “fuck my life” and I had wrote a blog on EVERYTHING that was going wrong but then when  I hit posted my computer went craycray and essentially lost the whole blog (not even a  draft was saved) and being all frustrated and stuff I just said fuck it there’s better things to do then rewrite it (like nothingness).  But since I had written that other post I’ve had the best of luck, or just a multitude of good/great things happen to me.

And today here’s the list of awesomeness:

Ugh, I got a free riding lesson, a pair of boots and gloves for winter.

I got a HUGE mirror and plywood to finish my repairs in my porch and supper from my aunt.

I made 40$ selling an old phone that I was keeping around until I could sell.

I got a weekend full of work which means more cash.

I got to go to an awesome concert (Brad paisley) and meet a new dude – was supper fun !

My porch is fully fixed and well done.

I’m sure there were more things  but I can’t think of them but these were the best I could think of 🙂 But it’s weird how everything can be the worst and then it can be the best.

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. 😉

Peace

#winning

#SingleLife

Yea, this post isn’t going on FB either haha. That title is so 2014 actually.

As you may or may not know readers I was in a long-term on and off relationship that was before a friend ship. And it ended in august/ september ish there was no real END date it just kinda went down up down and then ended. But it was always like this, unhealthy never going anywheres-ness. We are friends now, which is manageable for the moment.

I mean for once in my life I can do things how and when I want to. I don’t have to just check in or clarify to anyone. BUT there’s also the whole being an extrovert and wanting to socialize or be with people aspect that becomes lonely because you’ve lost an array of people in your life but as you see it doesn’t have to be that way. When you’re a mature adult it doesn’t have to be this cut throat ending. Well maybe that’s because there was no cheating involved in which case I can’t fucking stand cheaters and if it were to happen to me I wouldn’t keep that person in my life at all. But this previous relationship – the person is a good person he’s just not “the one” I guess you can say in a lame way. But he has been a good friend and I feel like in some way he will be for a long while. but it does make the other friendships made through the relationships (aka his friends) a little awkward, in my own personal opinion but maybe that’s because I’m socially awkward ?

Some people LOVE being alone, Some DESPISE it. Well folks I’m that guy (actually I am a female I’m just using the term guy loosely) the one who is like WELP I’m alone what to do, eat ice cream? watch sad movies ? Walk my dog at night-time? (not that ANY of those were real life examples – I don’t even buy ice cream haha) But what to do, I’m a mix of introverted and extroverted, if that even makes sense – I like to be alone but hate it, I like being with people but the sometimes I hate it. *I actually do walk my dog at night for the most part a couple of times a week it is pretty nice no ones driving by or around, just us two walkin’.

Anyways so my solution was to no-doubtly buy a dog, which was a great idea and I don’t regret it at all (but it was unexpectedly costly good thing I had 4k in savings) Duke, he is seriously the new love of my life and of course I still love Dutchess too!

And as for the rest I’m just going with it, the flow of life; sleep, eat, work, school, dogs, bills, cleaning, fitness, and repeat. What else can you do ?

travel the world, fall in love with yourself, be happy, see things that are new and exciting everyday, new experiences these are the things I am aiming to do in the now and future as much as possible . If that means being forever alone except having my dogs then so be it because the only person who knows you the best, loves you more than anyone else and who is with you 24/7 365 for life is YOU- YOURSELF that’s all you got and the rest are interactions which come together to make your life experiences with others, mind you don’t mistake this for “I’m never ever dating ugh I hate men” That is not at all what I’m saying, I’m just going to do what I do best and if someone lines up and is well you know the obvious “attractive, and mentally stimulating and is a hard worker and wants to share some of these experiences and is in love and I am too” then that happens, but I’m not forcing anything, I’m not chasing, I’m not going after, I’m not going online dating, I’m not settling, I’m not going after 17 year olds ever again cause like ew haha, I’m not going to sleep around. I’m just not going to extremes to put myself out there but I am living and I feel like this will lead to things as life lets you. I do not believe in faith or everything will fall together I believe in doing something you love and finding someone along the way and this is applicable to meeting friends too.  Just gonna do what I do, how I do, when I do all those do’s. haha does that even make sense :p.

I feel like I’m putting too much effort into explaining myself haha I’m one of those complicated elaborated not simplified persons don’t get me wrong I’m not extreamly happy, because well right now all I can think of is my shitty car and my homework assignment which I’m avoiding and in turn writing about this complicated mess of love and life. But I am living and I am doing the things I love which adds up to happiness. Which compared to a couple of years ago I’m way happier right now than I was 5 years ago or even months ago. Which in the long run is what matters most right? WHAT is with this font.

Awkwardness, so essentially I’m just being me and where that leads me is unknown because you never know what happens in tomorrowland until you’re there. (ha 10 points for anyone who knows what I’m talking about in this sentence! it’s a multi meaning type of thing.)

I’m just going to stop this now.

Peace.

 

Meet Duke

As you may have read in a previous post I have a new puppy named Duke, he’s a Sibarian Husky.

Heres a picture for added cuteness 🙂

He is seriously the love of my life, who needs a man ? Get a dog 🙂

Maybe these are signs of forever alone ? haha jokes. But seriously with a puppy it’s like your free time is consumed with joy, happiness, playfulness, excitement, all those positive emotions that we need to and should surround ourselves with. Remember people the most important thing in life is to be happy, and that’s through doing what you love and positive happy thoughts. 🙂 and for me that’s a cute  puppy and blogging and driving and riding and jogging and … you get my point 😉

I’ve been….

Excuse here, busy here, forgetting there, and so on.

so in a nut shell – I have been a lot of things, but blogging wasn’t one of them.

This past weekend, I went to the movies to see – Need for speed. it was pretty EPIC.

Then at one point I played some of Call of Duty : Ghost – cause this girl likes guys games 🙂

Then sometime on Sunday I went to a farmers Market, and ended this weekend with an intensive and truly fucked up episode of THE WALKING DEAD, a young caracter Lizzy had issues – like murdering her sister kind of issues.

Hmm,

But it was a good episode-

SADLY there are only 2 episodes left until October 😦 *insert crying here* WAIIIN

So anyways I have not much time to spare because I have to workout, How was your weekend though?

Peace 🙂

 

Visitors.

Hello viewers, readers, bloggers, fans and friends.

(For some odd reason I liked how that sounded – very va va voom)

Fact: That was a lot of v’s. haha

I’d just like to say thanks for stopping by, reading, commenting, and liking my posts.  And that I will be posting a bunch more in February too as well.

At this moment I have 505 views and every single one of them I am great full for.  Because If I wasn’t getting views I would not be posting, and if I’m not posting I’m not getting any views and it is this vicious cycle of terribleness. Well not quit so, I’d probably be reading a book or crocheting. YES i’m a 21 year old (soon to be 22) that crochets, leave me alone haha. It’s fun kay !

So anyways this very in depth and elaborate post is simply just to say thank you and see you in February hopefully. (and that I am a secret crochet addictive young lady)

And feel free to comment, or like or share my posts I’d appreciate it!

Peace.

2 Year Anniversary

So this past Christmas Eve marks the 2 year anniversary of this blog, mind you I have been sparse in blogging the last little while since June. The reason for this is because my life has been off of balance. And I have lacked motivation to blog and open up because quite honestly my life or more specifically the quality of life I have been living is one not worth talking about. But on a small good note it has been getting better I’m making more and more changes that are becoming a life style I enjoy living. Did anyone notice above that I started my blog on the day before Christmas ? WELL obviously I was bored :p I really want to be more consistent with blogs, I have a list of about 8 I want to do. And since you are reading this I can promise you readers I will blog these 8 and then some 🙂

How long have you been blogging for if you blog ? Link me up 🙂

If you don’t have a blog, go make one 🙂 or explain why you don’t ;P

So Much Yet So little

I have so much to do and so little time, I have about 4 blogs I want to write up including my secret sister gift which I got yesterday 🙂

Here are some of the blogs –>

– Secret Sister blog

-How much is my face worth (make up wise)

-Sunday Night Chit Chat

-Factory girl #2 (an update)

– Advice on what to do with my income tax return

And here is some of the homework I have to get done —>

-I have so much research to be done for a school project.

-I have a proposal to write.

-Book 1 of V for Vendetta.

-And a English essay to write. 

 

I also have no time to do any, I’m working night shifts and sleep when I’m not working. 

It’s pretty sad.  I see this HUGE list and go just want to run.

Some of you reading this might think, of well if schools a priority then why work or vise-versa they are both priorities that need to be done, in order to go to school I need money to pay for it and other things. 

Plus I’m Procrastinating AGAIN.

Peace

At Last.

I have come up with a new blog name and will be changing it immediately.

🙂 Check back soon !